Making progress

Yesterday I met up with a few different people I haven't seen in a while. I was so proud of myself because I was able to tell all of them that I have PH and that I am not able to have children. And even better, I didn't break down in tears telling them.

I visited a family that I used to babysit for. They are just an amazing family with 3 daughters. They are like my little sisters. When I told them, the whole room went silent. I thought they all were going to start crying. The girls have always been so excited for me to have babies. The mother of the 3 girls has told me for years that I was going to be a wonderful mother which is a high compliment from someone whose children you take care of. They are wonderfully supportive.

My husband was reading on some websites and most said the best thing to do is to tell as many people as possible that you are adopting that way it's out there in case anyone knows of anyone that is unable to keep their baby. So now that's my mission.

One of my goals for the new year is to find a church that I feel comfortable at and start going regularly. I feel like I need that structure of positivity and good thoughts.

This has been a trying year. I hope 2008 brings some happier times.